Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

No Escape!

2010-02-14T14:24:00.000-08:00

Have you ever wished to go far away?
So far away you just don’t know anyone or anything there.
But nothing you do, no matter how far you go,
Is ever good enough, will never bring you peace.

It’s not the place you want to escape from,
It’s not the ones you know or the ones you don’t.
It’s the pain that you want to evade from.
But anywhere you go, it never evades you.

It follows you like a loyal shadow,
Says it can never leave your side nor can you destroy it,
It’s all in the mind they say, to rid of the pain
But you have endured it for years together now.

You have no choice but to nurture this hurt, for this is how you chose to live.
Your eyes are swollen and it’s your that heart that bleeds now!
A tear of blood flowing from your eyes,
Is not something you haven’t seen in years!

An Ode to Victims of Terror

2008-10-03T05:52:00.000-07:00

When will people stop talking of resilience?
Instead I wish they maintain silence.
This word has become such a commonplace
Life has to move on and pick up pace
Where terror has no name, no face.

By this time people have become numb.
How easy has it become to be unemotional and dumb!
Amazing how people have moved on with dignity and poise,
Without making much of a noise.

It’s tough to stay composed and calm
In times of destruction and harm
People have no more tears to cry
While thousands of innocent men and women die

If God ever exits and he had a chance,
I wish he took a good glance
Of how people tremble and shiver
To walk on streets where blood flows as river

Someone must put an end to this helter-skelter,
Where people can happily go back to their shelter.
Every morning we pray in eternal fear,
Hoping to see in the evening our near and dear!

Stranger no more!

2008-09-10T06:12:00.000-07:00

Here's a poem for a special someone!

You were a stranger until a year ago,
Now you mean too much to let go.
You gave me hopes of a beautiful life,
When I was torn apart by misery and strife.

Words are too shallow to define what we share,
Because what we have nothing but love and care.
Your love for me is all that I need,
But one fine day it will let our tender hearts bleed.

I know we are holding onto each other a little too tight,
Even when we know it just isn't right.
I wish its true that tighter you hold on to sand,
The sooner it slips away from your hand.

Losing you is the reason for all my fears,
And the endless nights and countless tears.
Just when I thought I found my inspiration,
We part ways and walk in different direction!

Before I die

2008-02-26T13:04:00.000-08:00

Before I die, I don't want to lie,
This love has meant the world to me,
Without your love, where else could I be?

I want to die, this is no lie,
There isn't a reason to live,
I gave this love all I could give.

But I have no courage to die, Only tears to cry,
Behind the laughter and smiles,
There is only sorrow stretched for miles.

If this isnt love, what is love?

2007-12-02T08:07:00.000-08:00

You taught me how to embrace life,
When I was beginning to loath it,
You taught me how to love myself,
When I didn’t like what I was turning into.

You taught me life’s biggest pleasures,
Are attained by simplest of things,
You taught that unconditional love,
Is the only way to love someone.

But now that you are gone,
I feel I’m devoid of love.
And all that you taught me of love
Has vanished from my heart and soul.

I remember telling you if we don’t make it,
There’s nothing in world called love.
My love, my life has been taken away,
Without your love, I’m just a living corpse.

Come back to me and wake me up,
From the eternal sleep I have decided to take.
Fill my dawn and dusk with your love,
And bring me back to life!

Stranger Everywhere

2007-09-27T22:16:00.000-07:00

I’m a stranger to the mighty blue ocean
The depths of which I can never fathom
Every drop of water untouched by you
Does not speak of my love for you.

I’m a stranger to the lonely dark woods
Even if pass through them a million times
Every leaf that falls from the strange woods
Does not matter to me or my love for you

I’m a stranger to the vast torrid desert
Where every grain of sweltering sand
That does not hold your imprint
Will never leave an impression on me.

I’m a stranger to myself
The boundless love I have for you
Is completely incomplete and immaterial
Unless it is felt by your mind and soul.

Fight against Poverty!!!

2007-08-22T08:15:00.000-07:00

We come across poverty every single day. Here is a poem dedicated to all those street urchins who are born in poverty and live with it. The only way to remove poverty is to fight it.

Oh little girl, don’t look at me,
With those meek helpless eyes,
Don’t stretch out your hands,
For a few coins and sympathy from me.

Don’t let your parents teach you,
How to beg and pick food from bins,
And when you grow up into a woman,
How to sell yourself to lecherous men.

Lift your hand to hold a pen,
And shape your future with it.
Raise your voice, not to plead for money,
But to demand for education.

Don’t let your past dictate your future,
You were not born to live among dust and dirt.
Why do you need sympathy at all,
When even cripple earn a decent living.

Fight for yourself, fight for all those,
Who are a victim of hunger and poverty.
Fight those who dishonor your hopes and dreams,
You have right to happiness, freedom and education.

I need You!!!

2007-08-21T23:54:00.000-07:00

People walked in and out of my life,
But I never thought you’d leave me,
I was hurt, bitter and morose,
I broke down, I broke down…

There’s not a moment I don’t think of you,
What were you thinking when you left me,
Did you picture me during your last breath?
I need an answer, I need an answer

Your silence is killing me
Your memories are haunting me,
I wanted to shout out loud and ask you,
Why did u give up...why did u give up

I trusted no one but you, but now that you’re gone,
Whom do I turn to I pain, you were my everything, my God,
Please come back to me and Show me the path to happiness,
I need you now, I need you forever….

Away from Home

2007-08-02T09:07:00.000-07:00

This is not my home, this is not my home,
Tears dropped by the little girls cheek,
Home is where there are seven mighty hills,
Covered by a green carpet, she told herself.

Home is where every drop of rain is rejoiced,
Those little drops that seep into the ground,
And give an aroma that the little girl thought,
Would fill her appetite for a life time.

Home is where she can hear the bees drone,
Chirpy little sparrows greet her every morning,
Where she could roll on the wet grass eternally,
And soil her little finger and her clothes.

But life is so complex in this so called city,
Where even little rain causes so much havoc,
Where flowers, trees and smell of rain
Are thought to be an affluent luxury

She tried hard to make this place her home,
But she got love neither from home nor nature,
The love of her home kept haunting her,
But she tried endlessly to love what she had.

But the truth is home is where she got her love,
From parents and nature who nurtured her,
But she reconciled herself to her fate,
And started leading an insipid life.

Longing for summer!!!

2007-05-10T01:52:00.000-07:00

this poem is close to my heart as it is about my mother.she always loved the summers.she associated summer and sun shine with all things bright and beautiful.for her winter and rainy season were gloomy and lifeless.she loved summer for an all together different reason-her dads name being Marthandam (meaning sun).she was unwell in October 2002 and passed away that winter following which there were heavy rains in Hyderabad.so in this poem,there is a craving for summer but when it doesn't arrive,it marks the end of a beautiful life.

She always loved bright summers
When the sun rays pierced her skin
When the mango leaves were virgin green

She despised the winter and the rain
When the mood was nothing but gloomy
She hated everything wet and muggy

The summer kept her beaming and shining
She was so full of life and all smiles
It was the best time of her year

The rains came and like a pretty summer flower
Her petals began to fall away
But the furious rain gods didn't show mercy

She hated to be tugged under her blanket
She was carving to see the hint of sun
Yet the sun vanished and left her grieving

She waited and waited with her bated breath
To see the sun before her eternal sleep
She withered away with her last wish unfulfilled!!!

how i became a poet...

2007-05-06T08:04:00.000-07:00

I always wished to be a poet one day
To put my feelings beautifully into words
Many suggested playing with words wasn't my game
I gave up my dreams until one fine day

Grief struck me on that doleful day
Everything I had was taken away from me
All I was left with was my tears
Which never ceased to run down my eyes

I chose to write about my grief
My eyes got parched with no more tears to cry
My tears now turned into poems
Poems that the world took notice of

Strange that people enjoying my grief
Sadness is beautiful, enchanting and mystic
Though it gives one pain and misery
It gives words so much beauty

The Lonely star

2007-04-29T10:25:00.000-07:00

Shining splendidly in the sky
Was the only star in the corner?
So beautiful yet so lonely
Where were all the others?

All other stars turned their backs on this one
For even a cluster of stars
Couldn’t match the beauty of this lone star
So they all well abandoned her

There she was in the lonely dark sky
Wishing so badly she was just like others
But her beauty created awe among earthly beings
And jealousy among her once so called friends

She didn’t wish to be so different or beautiful
Yet she was blessed with these two
Which she thought was a solemn curse
She was scared of lonely death

None came to comfort her in moments of grief
She started withering away in utter sorrow
The moon, the king of the sky took notice of it
For she was his brightest star in his kingdom

The moon comforted her in grief and despair
He stood by her through thick and thin
Slowly she was falling in love
With none other than the king of the sky

The other stars almost died in jealousy
How badly they wished they could lure the moon
The moon and star lived in perfect harmony
Making the sky brighter than ever before

Death of an Angel

2007-04-16T23:26:00.000-07:00

The world was struck by grief
The gods lamented deeply
And the rain came pouring down
To mark the death of an angel

She was not just any angel
Her love so pure healed all souls
The gods were proud of their shining star
For she spread love with so much ease

But now that the angel was no more
The world was in utter chaos and disgrace
The gods watched the world being torn apart
But nothing they could do to rescue life

There was wrath here and jealousy there
There was sleaze and dishonesty everywhere
All life forms were massacred mercilessly
When our angel will be back, the gods cried

Everyone prayed for the rise of the angel
For she was not jus any angel
Her fairy like wings perched upon the world
Protected the world from all evil

The wedding

2007-04-03T03:04:00.000-07:00

I waited all my life for this moment
When I say 'I do' to the man I love
To wear that spotless white lacy gown
And walk down that holy aisle

I remembered the sweet moments
And they way he got on his knees
To ask me to marry him and make him lucky
I smiled to myself and began blushing

My heart started beating faster as I saw him
Looking all handsome in his black suit
He smiled me and gazed into my eyes
I know he just couldn't wait like me

The garden was beautiful with candles and flowers
Red roses, peach carnations and white gladiolas
The lake was placid with swans and ducks
It was a perfect wedding I thought

He was waiting for his wife to be
To hold her hands and say I do
He looked into my light brown eyes
Which he always called ‘drops of honey’

We made our wedding vows
I promised to love him till eternity
He kissed my hand and held it at his heart
And said I made him the happiest man

When we finally said ‘I do’ to each other
We were declared ‘man and wife’
We shut our eyes to seal our marriage
With an everlasting long memorable kiss

Money, madness and man

2007-04-02T23:27:00.000-07:00

I, once owned a million gold coins
All I wanted to do all night and day
Was count the coins and admire them
I forgot to eat, I forgot to breathe
I became pale and sickly
Yet it went unnoticed to me
And never cared for people who loved me

Then I realised what I was missing
When I saw people happy around me
I was the only one scared and worried
About my precious gold coins
I decided to let go of all my wealth
Is the world blinded by wealth
Just like me...I pondered

I went to a market buzzin with activity
Carrying the bag that made me sick
I stood at the top of a vegetable cart
And started throwing my woes away
At once people thronged the place
Beggars both rich and poor

They killed, fought and stamped on eachother
Men, women, children all were dying
Yet noone cared for the miserable scene
I saw animals laughing at the human kind
How lucky are they to be away
From this mess called MONEY
I realized what money has made of man

I tried to walk back happy and light
As the burden was off my shoulder
But I was saddened by the death & destruction
That money brought to human kind
Money like a rough wave that comes and goes
A wave drags the sand below your feet
Money drags the happiness from your heart

nobody's child

2007-04-02T23:26:00.000-07:00

She only wanted a beautiful life
With happiness all around
She never dreams of castles
Or a chauffer driven car

She was a happy simple child
Spreading happiness around her
But all she got in return
Was all the worlds misery and pain

Happiness evaded her time and again
And her life was breaking apart
With people whom she loved
Only left her sooner with wounds all sour

She was a lonely child nowhere to go
With no one to go to in pain
Crying all by herself cursin her life
She was a sad little “nobody’s child"

growing up

2007-04-02T23:25:00.000-07:00

When I was young
I always would wonder
What it is like
To be a grown up

What would it be like
To earn a lot of money
And have a handsome prince by my side
And have kids of our own

Not that I’m old and all grown up
I only wish I could turn back time
As growing up is only painful
With the pressures of the world

I only wish I could go back in time
And play and play all night and day
With little friends of mine
Whom I’ve shared innocent moments with

Wish I could be pampered
By all my near and dear
And celebrate every occasion
Wearing princess frilly frocks

But now I’ve outgrown those frilly gowns
And people no more pamper me
My little friends have grown old too
And it’s the end of innocence, sadly!

nostalgia

2007-04-02T23:24:00.000-07:00

When I’m in love with you
Everything seems so beautiful and new
Our love has blossomed over the years
You’ve held me thru my joys and tears

When I think of our first few dates
I remember your flirting ways
You told me you found me pretty
But I found you just so witty

I remember the time you stared
That’s when friends knew what we shared
I remember the sweet blush
When you told them I was your first crush

Your love makes my night and day
And it has shown me the way
Time we spent is more precious than gold
I’m glad you’ll be with me when I grow old

welcome dear sunlight

2007-04-02T23:23:00.001-07:00

welcome dear sunlight,
thank u for makin my day bright.
i know u feel blue,
when noone wants u.
but i welcome u in,
with a big sweet grin.
i love it when u melt the dew,
making everything fresh and new.
i like to see u smile,
while i walk that mile.
so promise me u will stay,
from the time i wake up till the end of day

do u feel the same?

2007-04-02T23:23:00.000-07:00

When I dream of you from dusk to dawn,
I wonder if you dream of me too…
When I smile thinking of our moments,
I wonder if you’re thinking the same…
When I pick up the phone to hear your voice,
I wonder if you’re dying to hear me too…
When I hug my pillow thinking its you,
I wonder if you’re hugging it tighter…
When I miss being with you day in and day out,
I wonder if you feel the same…

love u mom

2007-04-02T23:22:00.000-07:00

Dear mother,
Mother is another word for love
No love is as sweet as hers
Mother is another word for friend
No friend is as faithful as her
Mother is another word for God
No god can be as great
Mother is another word for compassion
No one can be as kind
Mother is another word for teacher
She teaches lessons of life
Mother is another word for sacrifice
She’ll give up the world for you!!!

I MISS YOU MOM!!!

Don't say goodbye

2007-04-02T23:21:00.000-07:00

I could see the pain
When I saw you smile.
I could see the tears
You were trying to hide.
I could hear you say
“Don’t say goodbye”.

I knew how much you loved me
When you held my hand.
I knew how elated we were
Right next to each other.
I knew life is at its best
When you gazed into my eyes.

I wanted to say, “Just close your eyes,
I’m right next to you”
I wanted to say, “Think of our lovely times,
You wont feel blue”.
I wanted to say, “It’s just a beginning,
So I wont ever say goodbye”.

goodnight my moonlight

2007-04-02T23:20:00.000-07:00

Good night my moon light,
You make my night bright,
You make me live every moment with delight,
When i'm with u,everything seems so right
With ur love for me,i can scale new height,
Just like a colorful kite

On this wonderful starlit night,
Why are you so quiet,oh my soft moonlight,
I want you to love me with all your might,tonight,
Just hold me tight and kiss me goodnight,goodnight!!!!

Torn into pieces

2007-04-02T23:18:00.000-07:00

I woke up to a beautiful day,
With all snow on my window
I reached out to touch your hand like always
I looked by the pillow to see the white Lilly’s
That you get for me everyday from our little garden
I thought you would at least kiss me on my forehead
And whisper in my ear how much you love me
Like just another beautiful morning
But you weren’t there

I searched for you all morning
And realized it wasn’t that perfect morning
I ran across the street to find you
With nothing under my feet
It was another frozen morning
With snow all across the street
Everyone looked at the crazy girl
Shouting out her lovers name
I came back to an empty home which was once filled with love
With all tears running down my cheeks

I just then remembered we decided to part last night
I didn’t know how painful it would be until I woke up
I looked at myself in the mirror
My eyes looked hollow because I cried all night
I read all the love notes you wrote for me
I sang all the songs we sang together
I went to our favorite hiding place
Hoping that you would at least wait for me there
But I couldn’t find you anywhere except in my thoughts

Love was right round the corner
But both of us walked away from it
Now loneliness and I walk hand in hand
Hoping that you would come back someday
True love always wins come what may
I wait for you till the end of time
Hoping that you will be mine someday again